Monday, March 08, 2010

The past, the present, the future...and obviously the current

I cannot believe how far this school year went. It all seems like a blissful blur and it's okay with me. As much as I want to live my college years, I cannot wait to get into the real world and experience what life has to offer. Give me the birth control pills, the bills, the debt, the car insurance, the diapers that I would have to be changing, give it all to me!


Okay, maybe I am not so excited for that, but it is amazing how fast time flys. I was looking through my planner and I thought, "Jeeze, where did all this time go?!" I am excited for the future, yet I am not. Death is apparent in life and I do not want to see my loved ones perish away, right in front of my eyes. Though, with modern technology surging fast enough that we cannot even catch a glimpse of it, we'll see how lifespans alter.

The summer is coming up and I am going to be honest, but I won't have much of a Stroudsburgian, New Yorkian summer. That's right. Instead, I'll be in Washington DC. Georgetown, here I come. I am going to miss my relatives and my friends, but that just means they have the purpose to visit me in our beautiful nation's capital. I am going to work so hard. I love journalism, I love writing, I love meeting new people, I love asking questions. I just want to make the most out of my opportunity. This is something that I have always dreamt of. Maybe I do belong in DC. Everyone says it anyways.


Today, I had an epiphany. It is that no matter what problems I may have with a person, when I see that person's face, I want to run up to them and give them a kiss - forgetting the stupid, bickery fight we've had. It's the magic in his eyes that I am so enticed by. We have our problems over the internet, for the most part, and when I see you, stand right in front of you, where your torso hits my head and when you look down, all you see is my scalp, these problems wash away. Your arms that touch my delicate frame and  your crooked smile that warms my soul, my body, and mind, I love you. Have we already gone through this honeymoon stage and are already about to embarck on life? Who knows. But now I am afraid. I need to see you right in front of me when we have a problem. Your presence solves it all. Just look at today.


I am going to New York in a few hours and I am excited. Time to see my loved ones. I missed everyone so dearly and I cannot wait to hug you all and tell you how much I love you! I am such a family girl. Without them, I am nothing. Jeeze, I have so much to tell everyone, I am not sure where to begin.


I just wish I had the power to stop time and just take everything in, one by one. I need to embrace life and smell what it has to offer me. I long for the past. I long for the present. And I long for the current.

I want to gather everyone, every single person in my life in a room and talk to everyone. Ask them how everything is. Get to ask them the deep, raw questions. I just wish I had the option of doing that. I want to get to know everyone so well that I am able to write a beautiful, honest book about them. Enough about me. It's my turn to ask the questions.


I have so much work to get done, I am just getting started.