I know that my little brother is a bit on the anti-social side. He usually spends his time playing video games and eating. He isn’t in any after-school activity (he was in wrestling, but he claims that he was kicked out because he failed the “water test.” Though, a person in wrestling told me that you could take that test repeatedly. Whatever. If he wanted to be in wrestling so bad, he’d continue to attempt to past the test. Obviously, he didn’t and I feel bad. I suppose he wasn’t motivated enough.)
But anyways, we were at my friend Greg’s house. Greg’s fat friend (David) who also looks like the playing video game and tenacious food-eating type was messing with my brother. He was literally picking a fight with my brother! I’m not gonna lie, but if this asshole is going to pick a fight with someone, at least do it with someone, his weight.
I screamed at the Fat Fuck to stop. He was using a lighter towards my brother. I screamed random things for him to stop, and he did. But, after I was done telling him to stop, everyone was laughing at me. (Except for my brother, clearly and BH.) I know I helped my brother but I still felt that BH should have said something, at least helped without being silent. I was disappointed. He probably didn’t know what to do, but at least try. I suppose I want a Prince Charming that would not only stick up for me, but for my loved ones who need it more than I do.
As what Laura Swenson said, “Men are like a deck of cards. You’ll find the occasional king, but most are jacks.” Nothing is more attractive for a guy trying to help someone in need. I have never been so mad at someone before, that Fat Fuck achieved it. Congratulations asshole.
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I sometimes ponder over how much I hate society. Rude people like the Fat Fuck just make me mad. It makes me want to scream. I rethink about how shitty our world can be. First are just the assholes who mean, especially the ones for no good reason. I’m that kinda girl who is nice. If you first see me, I’ll smile. I can’t help but smiling at people – it just makes the world brighter. Plus, it spreads, like some beautiful disease that I just want others to emulate. However, the people who don’t smile and just have attitudes for no good reason at all, bother me. So… I sometimes give them a taste of their own medicine. You may think that two wrongs don’t make a right, but I purely believe on the Golden Rule (treat people the way you want to be treated.) They might be some reason, deep deep down below the depths of their soul, but still, at least try to smile… or laugh.
Laughing is good for the soul, no matter how odd or long it is. It’s beautiful and fascinating.
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Another thing that irks my soul that happens in this society is judging before you know something. This includes the kids in my lunch at my high school that saw school food and instantly thought “EW!” Okay sure, I have to admit, at Stroudsburg, the food is a UFO (unidentified food object) but don’t judge it because it looks bizarre. Embrace it! BH and I have gone that extra mile and tried the food, and for the most part, it was actually pretty good. Don’t be afraid to try something because it looks “gross.” Live life and you’ll actually be surprised.
Also, judging people on how they act even though you don’t know them. The one that really strikes me is Michael Jackson. I am deeply saddened by his death and I even restrained myself from crying while listening to his moving music. The thing that bothers me is that all these people make fun of him, accuse him of child molestation, etc. To the people who participate in such malicious activities: You don’t know him, you don’t know what he’s been through, stop with all of your nonsense, get a life, and focus on yourself. You probably have problems of yourself that need to get resolved. How would you like it if people were making cracks about your weird behavior? The feeling hurts. Sheesh.
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Ugh, I hate how people are treating our environment and its inhabitants. With all this nasty ass littering, pollution, and the killing of endangered animals for sheer food or money, it’s all disgusting. Maybe I am sounding like an ultimate flower child, tree hugger (go-ahead label me bitch) but this is what human greed has done. I can’t stand it. I’m planting an apple tree. It’s outside my window and it’s almost as tall as me. :)
Perhaps I could open my window and just grab an apple in a couple years!!
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This may sound sudden, but I am really scared to die. I don’t know when that will be but I’m afraid. I don’t want to leave my loved ones astray or have them leave me either, but I’m just scared to lose them. I don’t want them to lose me either because usually in my family, I try to keep my family together. I just don’t want them to break away after I’m gone. I want to achieve my dreams and try to influence others around me. It seems like many people are perishing so suddenly, and sometimes without achieving their dreams. I don’t want to endure that fate. I’m not becoming cautious or anything, I’m still going to act like myself, but this is something that has freaked me out for a while.
The death scare triggers a lot of people to become very wary, as well as other hazardous situations. But as Franklin Delano Roosevelt said in his first inaugural address, “Only thing we have to fear is fear itself.” Fear is such a huge factor in everyone’s life that we don’t do things because we are afraid of the outcome; whether it is rejection, death, or injury. It’s sad to see that fear affects so much of our lives that I am surprised that probably why a lot of people are doing many courageous (or even not so courageous, even mundane) things is because of fear.
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Being a biracial person, I’ve endured a lot of name-calling and stereotypes. I suppose in life we all happen to go through it and yeah, I’m kind of used to it because it has been used tenaciously, but sometimes, I hope it stops. Not just for me, but for everyone else who is also getting annoyed and tired of the multitude of names and labels. When I was listening to Michael Jackson’s “Black or White” song, one of my favorite lines is, “I'm not going to spend my life being a color.” We always see a person and normally we say, “Oh yes this black person…” or “The one white dude said…” or “I saw the Asian woman…”.
I know it’s human nature to classify a person as “black/white/etc” but I wish it would stop. I’ve been called “Asian” a shit load of times. But I sometimes wish they could also realize that I am not JUST Asian. If you saw my last name, it is Dominican. It is probably because I look “Asian” but I wish I could be classified as something else instead of a race. When I describe someone whose name I don’t know, I try to stay away from saying their race or color of their skin. It’s not fair to them and I hope others try to follow along with this. Maybe intolerance can fade from all these classifications and we could all just accept one another.
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If you’ve been living under a rock since yesterday (or didn’t read this blog entry from the beginning), you probably haven’t heard about the death of Michael Jackson. Well, his legacy continues to spread. I seriously do miss the guy, it’s not even funny. I was reading something written by Lisa Marie Presley (his ex) and she remembered, “At some point he paused, he [Michael Jackson] stared at me very intensely and he stated with an almost calm certainty, "I am afraid that I am going to end up like him [Elvis], the way he did."
It amazed me how he predicted his death like that. So sudden. So young. So famous. So mesmerizing. The King of Rock and the King of Pop had collided fates.
Back in the 60’s, I believe, John Lennon was being interviewed and he was asked on how he might die. Lennon replied, "I'll probably be popped off by some loony." And look what happened…
Back in the 60’s, I believe, John Lennon was being interviewed and he was asked on how he might die. Lennon replied, "I'll probably be popped off by some loony." And look what happened…
My mom predicts that she will die at sea since she can’t swim. I hope she’s WRONG because we’re going to the Galapagos in a week and I really don’t feel like dying anytime soon.
I still have more bigger shoes to fill and dreams to fulfill.
Don't forget the people to love as well!
-Happy 200th entry. Doubt you noticed. But there you go.
-Happy 200th entry. Doubt you noticed. But there you go.
Go celebrate your life! (No seriously!)
