Plus, I'm an ultra-procrastinator. I'm trying to stop the habit of doing nothing but look up useless facts on the Internet. But hey, maybe some day I'll be a contestant in Jeopardy and those futile facts may come in handy.
Anywho, on my previous entry, I've noted that I will tell everyone who reads this why I do not take anybody seriously anymore. Maybe occasionally I do, but here’s why…
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I used to take things very personally. If it were a high dose of criticism or just being called a weird name, the words would feel like great jolts of lighting scorched to my whole body.
Now, with both criticism and compliments geared towards me, I will take none oh-so-seriously. I just brush it off with a “Yeah. Whatever you say” and I quickly change the subject.
I would hear the same variation of compliments all the time since I was little.
I liked it for about a decade or so, but after a while, I just got tired of it.
‘Till this day, I hear the same things. It got repetitive and in my head I would just say, “Okay. Tell me something that hasn’t been told to me before.”
But then again, I don’t think I’m that intelligent, pretty or better yet, fashionable.
I just wear what’s comfortable. I think that’s the way to be.
It’s not that I have a deficient lack of self-esteem. I just feel being “pretty” shouldn’t matter or being cared too much.
What ever happened to courage and passion?
Clearly we are just hooked up in our own little fantasy world where the beautiful people rule and the ugly people are the lower class.
With all the rejection I’ve endured, and yet I still keep on going, people really do like picking out the obvious.
In orchestra, for example, one of my biggest problems is that I have a tendency to speed up from the normal beat.
It’s terrible, I know. But when I do speed up, I have fellow cellists turn around and give me looks.
One would also attempt to give me advice in the snobbiest way and it will sound like Gibberish since she doesn’t even know what she’s talking about.
I just tune them out.
Another main reason I don’t take anyone or anything seriously is with all the hype of sarcasm spreading like a mutant communicable virus that now completely envelops the whole world, it’s just too much of a burden to decipher whether or not a person is acting facetious towards you or not.
It all started in the world of the Internet.
We use it almost everyday and waste our teenage lives instant messaging and printing out pictures of the latest celebrities’ nip slip. Despicable yes and time wasting – helas yes.
I mean, sure. I use instant messaging so much, I abuse it rather than being productive on the programs.
As I was saying with using sarcasm in a high-tech forum, you can never see the person’s face or hear the tone of their voice, unless you are fortunate enough to have video chat.
Which is of course, a pedophile/sex addict’s dream.
With all the drama our world is enduring, life is too important to be taken seriously; so live it with laughter, confidence, and love.
P.S. As far as the printing out pictures of a celebrity's nip slip... if any of my teachers assigns it for extra credit, "Go and find a picture of a celebrity's non pinnacle highlight of their career", a picture of a nip slip that's blurred would probably be my first choice.
