This is probably one of the hardest decisions I’d ever have to make, however I’ve thought long and immensely hard about it for a while.
Even though the third day of school has already passed, I am miserable in my fourth period class. And ironically, it’s the class that I’ve always wanted to take and it was AP United States History.
Even from the first day I walked into Modular 4, I felt an uneasy twist in my stomach. I knew something wasn’t right. But I thought to myself that I was probably just getting sick due to Marty’s appearance the next day.
However, it wasn’t just Marty’s ferocious attack on the third of September, it was actually how I felt in the class. Clearly hormones weren’t such of a problem, but it was the uncomfortable feeling I had. Something wasn’t right every time a minute passed during class.
We haven’t done much; we completed an 80-question practice test and I didn’t mind it. Sure, I did poorly, but that wasn’t the point.
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I wavered myself into APUSH because I seriously loved history and I wanted to be challenged academically. Fortunately, the class did challenge me, but in ways that wasn’t supposed to: it challenged my emotions. The second I stepped into the classroom, I felt out of place. I didn’t feel like myself – it was as if a little part of me slipped away and went somewhere else for a change. It only left a residual side of me that was maudlin and pessimistic; adjectives that hardly describe who I am.
And as sad as it sounds, every time I think about APUSH, I get a bit upset. Plus, I am missing out in Global Issues's productivity it has to offer which makes the situation even more worse.
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Originally, I signed up for Global Issues as my top elective class for senior year. However, with my schedule being “full”, I wasn’t able to fit it in my schedule. I hear GI is so amazing from many students, including BH. (Now don’t think I want to take GI because he’s in it. I’ve always wanted to take GI since sophomore year.)
If I continue on with APUSH, I’d be miserable for more of my senior year. Seriously, I can’t take that shit. I want this year to be fun and not just a pocket full of sadness.
Since I’d be “dropping” myself out of APUSH, my report card would exhibit a “WF” which is a withdrawal fail.
Personally, I don’t care about the consequences. According to CJ, I have balls to put that in my report card – especially for senior year, but it’s my decision and I feel 100% confident about it.
In other news, I AM SO EXCITED FOR GLOBAL ISSUES. DEBATING ABOUT CURRENT EVENTS CIRCULATING OUR SOCIETY, HERE I COME!!!!
